Sorry

I'm so sorry I said hello again.

It maybe should have stayed a goodbye.

For some reason, I thought I had grown wings and could suddenly fly.

But my wings are broken now.

A tornado infects me; well known for being heartbreaking.

I think I have to be so cold, but I will stay.

Once in a while; I might creep out and play.

It's not your fault, my old Dear.

You are great to be nearby...

I just can't fly.

Forever Young

Forever young - forever fun; forever naive; forever believe

Or...enjoy the growth of crinkles; the grey; the bodies' dismay

What comes after youth?

The teacher off truth -

and then?

Wisdom grows

and then

You just calmly and cooly know.

Feel

I feel myself as if I have been exiled to here from some transient time

This time is covered in gold jewelry and elegant robes; surrounded by jaguars, strolling...friendly

The jaguars stride sings; tells me of all I have become

I just have to watch her stroll

Watch her cat-like reflexes dance and amaze me

I am entranced

Sometimes

Sometimes I can still feel that thickness between us; a tangible fog or mist of love or lust or connectivity or LONGING

It is a solid form of air

A sexual cloud in a heavenly sky of our bodies; skin on skin

My fingers caress this memory

Before things went bad

My fingertips are sad

My memory is a black n white photo of face next to face and an almost last kiss

I'm no longer mad

just missed

See Through

I was once thanked for my transparency.

Because I am alone I let all in...let all see.

Afraid? not me

Grandmother

I taste like my grandmother.

How can I taste in my mouth - like my grandmother?

The one who's still here

Who's coloring; exactly, I have

Who's beauty and talents I possess

Who I'm so not like

Who I'm so just like

I will remember her in my mirror

Think

He shaved me down to nothing

I remembered the magic of makeup

of how a shaved head represents emotional distress

often a punishment for prisoners of so many kinds

I have to change

From beyond the grave

loss of dignity

I don't think so